perhaps, you know

david and i broke up three weeks ago. his decision.

i saw it coming a while ago already. besides, from my previous post, i should have really seen it coming kan?

i miss him still even though people are telling me i should not and instead, should just move on. to quote a good friend:

'the best way to move on is to be with someone else'.

easy for someone who always had that someone with her. someone she liked and had a crush on even when she was with her ex. i don't. i never liked or had a major crush on someone while i was with david. although apart, we were still emotionally attached. now, i don't know. i love him very very much still but he...i don't know.

should i move on or hope for the best between us? i don't know what to do or feel. part of me just wants to up and leave to be by his side right now. a small part of me just wants to forget everything and move on. but i can't. perhaps it's because the wound is still so fresh i don't know.

can i just hide for a while?

all i wanted was to be with him. now that's gone. and it's my fault.