happy new year and sorry for not updating since september.
it was a crazy 2008 at the end of it. drama and issues and wallet dropping.
oh well, here's to the new year and hopefully we will all make the most out of it, yes?
resolutions! pff...as if i'm gonna keep to them. come to think of it, i believe the reason why i have never completed my resolutions for the year is because they're always impossible feats! i mean, given the time frame, 12 months is not long...it's pretty short when you have your whole life in front of you. i remember i once wanted to lose like 20 kgs in a year just because when i was 14 or 15 i managed to do it. but of course, those who knows my history would know that i did it in the MOST unhealthy way. i also remembered i wanted to learn to drive to kl on my own but till now, i never ever did. i was also afraid of driving on my own to foreign places. as in other states or places that i've never been to. i kinda did do it at the end of the year but not quite really too. nevermind.
2008 was a year of reflection and hard work. it took sheer determination to make my career rise up but it took a toll on my relationships with the family and david. i bickerred with the sister way too much until we both sort of loathed the sight of each other. i spent too much time at work and with friends from work that i neglected the boyfriend. blinded by the whole 'your job is your life because you get money out of it' mantra.
lucky for me, he stuck thru it with me eventhough he wanted to break up countless of times but because he knew we were a unit, he stayed on although he really didn't want to. the whole distance thing was bad. has always been. i blamed myself at the beginning of the year but after a while, i realised that it's nobody's fault. it could've happened to anyone. we were just unfortunate, that's all. come to think of it, what really made me want to be with him even more is watching one of my best friend getting engaged. watching them act the way they do made me realise that i'm missing out on so much when i'm not with him. i only have 1 life. only 12 months to be 23 or 22 or 15 or 40 or 90 years old. why wasn't i spending all those 12 short months with the one that i love and who loves me back?
of course, 2008 wasn't just about the boyfriend and i although i seem to recall more of that than ever. 2008 will always be remembered as the year i grew up to really be an adult. perhaps it's because i was treated like one and then i started to think like one and now, i think i really am already. i manage my anger and playfulness much better now. but i did cry alot though. hmm...must work on that in 2009.
so anyway, 2009 resolutions even though it's 1 day late. never too late, yes?
1. to lose some weight using the healthy way. a couple of kilos per month would be great. otherwise, it's ok. maybe i really am born to be big. plus, the boyfriend loves me the way i am. so...i'm doing this for myself ok.
2. blog more! i feel so bad whenever i log back into blogger or into my blog to go to the links. i must also put in more pictures...random pictures maybe.
3. save money. loads and loads of money so that i can ...
4. learn to invest. anyone wanna teach me?
5. drive to kl at least once with and/or without someone in the car.
6. be nicer to people especially the interns. i'm such a bully.
7. finally tell my dad about the boyfriend after being silent about it for four and a half years. i'm sure he knows but it'll be great to hear it from my own mouth no?
8. go to the states. a month? a year? few years? a week?
9. be braver!!!
10. head to gym at least twice a week...and really really work out.
11. spend more time with the boyfriend...not on the phone but by his side. thus number 8.
12. think about the future. family, money, career in that order.
so, 2009. will you be really be the year where i take all risks? be a 'YES' woman? never backing down when challenges arise?
i hope so. wait. i KNOW so.
have a happy new year everyone.
it was a crazy 2008 at the end of it. drama and issues and wallet dropping.
oh well, here's to the new year and hopefully we will all make the most out of it, yes?
resolutions! pff...as if i'm gonna keep to them. come to think of it, i believe the reason why i have never completed my resolutions for the year is because they're always impossible feats! i mean, given the time frame, 12 months is not long...it's pretty short when you have your whole life in front of you. i remember i once wanted to lose like 20 kgs in a year just because when i was 14 or 15 i managed to do it. but of course, those who knows my history would know that i did it in the MOST unhealthy way. i also remembered i wanted to learn to drive to kl on my own but till now, i never ever did. i was also afraid of driving on my own to foreign places. as in other states or places that i've never been to. i kinda did do it at the end of the year but not quite really too. nevermind.
2008 was a year of reflection and hard work. it took sheer determination to make my career rise up but it took a toll on my relationships with the family and david. i bickerred with the sister way too much until we both sort of loathed the sight of each other. i spent too much time at work and with friends from work that i neglected the boyfriend. blinded by the whole 'your job is your life because you get money out of it' mantra.
lucky for me, he stuck thru it with me eventhough he wanted to break up countless of times but because he knew we were a unit, he stayed on although he really didn't want to. the whole distance thing was bad. has always been. i blamed myself at the beginning of the year but after a while, i realised that it's nobody's fault. it could've happened to anyone. we were just unfortunate, that's all. come to think of it, what really made me want to be with him even more is watching one of my best friend getting engaged. watching them act the way they do made me realise that i'm missing out on so much when i'm not with him. i only have 1 life. only 12 months to be 23 or 22 or 15 or 40 or 90 years old. why wasn't i spending all those 12 short months with the one that i love and who loves me back?
of course, 2008 wasn't just about the boyfriend and i although i seem to recall more of that than ever. 2008 will always be remembered as the year i grew up to really be an adult. perhaps it's because i was treated like one and then i started to think like one and now, i think i really am already. i manage my anger and playfulness much better now. but i did cry alot though. hmm...must work on that in 2009.
so anyway, 2009 resolutions even though it's 1 day late. never too late, yes?
1. to lose some weight using the healthy way. a couple of kilos per month would be great. otherwise, it's ok. maybe i really am born to be big. plus, the boyfriend loves me the way i am. so...i'm doing this for myself ok.
2. blog more! i feel so bad whenever i log back into blogger or into my blog to go to the links. i must also put in more pictures...random pictures maybe.
3. save money. loads and loads of money so that i can ...
4. learn to invest. anyone wanna teach me?
5. drive to kl at least once with and/or without someone in the car.
6. be nicer to people especially the interns. i'm such a bully.
7. finally tell my dad about the boyfriend after being silent about it for four and a half years. i'm sure he knows but it'll be great to hear it from my own mouth no?
8. go to the states. a month? a year? few years? a week?
9. be braver!!!
10. head to gym at least twice a week...and really really work out.
11. spend more time with the boyfriend...not on the phone but by his side. thus number 8.
12. think about the future. family, money, career in that order.
so, 2009. will you be really be the year where i take all risks? be a 'YES' woman? never backing down when challenges arise?
i hope so. wait. i KNOW so.
have a happy new year everyone.
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